Thursday, April 16, 2009

A Hopeful Garden

If I look out my kitchen door, I see a great opportunity--my new garden. I was very excited when we looked at our house when I found a nice garden bed about 20" x 30" that had been built into a slight raise in the yard and flanked on three sides by a short stone wall.

I don't know how long it has been dormant, but not too long--as not much grass has had an opportunity to take hold. I have been wanting to double-spade it to turn the earth over, but my husband is insisting that we borrow a rototiller from a friend. I am okay with that--he wants to take care of me, and I love him for it.

My Dad always had a garden for as long as I can remember. His gardens were, in a word, magnificent.

Mom, Amy, Dad and me, about 1979

I have no intention of having an enormous garden--not yet. His advice to me has been to start simple, and that is what I am going to do. A few Heirloom tomatoes, some cukes, a couple of green beans, carrots and onions and some sunflowers for James. Maybe some marigolds and some basil, too.

The last few months have been difficult, to say the least. But--I am seeing a light ahead. I have been talking with my husband, my Dad, my sister about my grief--how it waxes and wanes, and how everything seems to be framed within it. Things that shouldn't bother me at all cut deeply and I cry at night about them. Other things that should hurt like hell just leave me numb.

I know that the people that love me recognize that I need some time to step back into the world.

With their continued support, I think I'll step into my garden first.


Anonymous said...

Definitely start small. 20x30 is a huge undertaking and it may feel more like work than relaxing and enjoyable. My 2 cents...

Allison said...

Thank you, anonymous--you sound like my Dad! Yes, I only meant to say that is how large the plot is, not that I would be tilling or planting all of it. Afterall, I'll probably barely have time with my two little ones keeping me busy, LOL.

Sarah@VintageChic said...

I hope you find some peace while tending your garden. Last year was my first garden - just pepper plants, herbs & pumpkins. This year, I enlarged it some and am planning on adding a few other vegetables. I've been meaning to post pictures, but of course, haven't had a chance.

Happy Thursday!

Tara said...

We started small last year and are increasing the size of our garden this year. The thing I REALLY want to plant is garlic!

Teresa R said...

Starting simple is sage advice from your dad. And besides, it's amazing how prolific a single tomato or cucumber plant is! I like all your choices.

I also have to echo what Sarah said - hoping that you'll find peace while tending your garden. :)

Anonymous said...

that is not 78, I was born in 79, thank you! love you!

Auntie Amy said...

that was me, Auntie Amy!

Jayne said...

What a great garden spot there. :c) Love the photo in front of your dad's garden.

Allison said...

Sarah, did your pumpkins take over?

Tara, let me know how the garlic goes--I would be interested in trying that!

Thank you, Teresa :-)

Aw, Amy--how could I get that wrong, after all, this year was your big 30!!!!! tee hee (I fixed it)

Thanks Jayne. Corn mile high in July, right?

Jen@Balancing Beauty and Bedlam said...

Praying for you during this "hopeful garden" time.

Can't wait to see what you do with this spot. What a fun find...almost as great as the Anne Taylory things you're going to find. :)

Happy hunting,

Liz said...

Ooooh - I want to plant garlic, too. I can't figure out how, though. If you figure it out, Allison - or someone who's Blog you read figures it out, please forward me the info!!

Liz said...

Oh, yeah - and - grief is different for everyone - you'll handle it in your own way, in your own time.